I just found out one of my former teammates passed away. We had played on several teams together over many years. We weren't really friends and i haven't spoken to her in ~20 years, but I'm still sad to hear she died. We spent a lot of time together and went through a lot together (on the field, not off it).

I suspect she committed suicide based on her obituary (honestly, it fits how she lived when I knew her-- drugs, drinking, and unhappiness). I'm not sure though and hope to get more info from another teammate I'm still close with. I think I'm struggling to process it, tbh. It makes me sad, but i haven't cried. And i suspect that from this point on, I'll get more bad news than good as i get older.