I just went to the doctor for the first time in a long time. I did not receive good news but my hope for a positive outcome also took a huge hit. I kinda want to cry alone and feel bad for myself.

Nothing life threatening, but God damn I feel like I was cursed for my past life transgressions.

I don't know what I was expecting. I knew it wasn't going to be a simple thing, but finding out I've been a secret Sisyphus is disheartening. I thought this mountain had a peak to reach, but I might be pushing against a solid wall.