I don't think i'll ever go back to my unangry "happy life" 🙄mode, or if i'd ever want to even if i could... i give my everything if i think you're worth it, but when you betray my trust or i think that my trust has been betrayed, you're not even worth the revenge. I think whether for good or bad, it's a part of me now. I can only manage it for it not to turn into hate or deep mistrust and distrust, i think.